A very special love in my life got my undivided attention when he confirmed for love to have significance, power and reality, it must be defined by both involved parties.  Today, two people tell one another that they love each other not realizing just what that means individually.  When fulfillment is to be established in a special relationship, it must be understood:  LOVE MUST BE DEFINED.  “In the story “This Thing Called Love” the characters learn their past decided their meaning of love resulting in unintentional heartache.

“I don’t want to talk about it.  My stepfather really messed up my mind.”

“I know he did because when we were in school you always looked like you had to be careful about everything you said and done.  Most of the time when you mentioned him your whole countenance changed.”

“Well, you know what happened. But you really don’t understand what it does to a person.”

“No, I don’t understand what happens to a person who is molested, but I do know any unjust experience a person has put that person in a position to choose trust or no trust in God.”

“That’s so easy to say.  But how do you trust God when God wasn’t protecting you from unjust experiences?”

“I knew that was coming.  God and experiences are separate purposes.  Experiences are the circumstances and events we are engulfed in life.  God is the force behind it all. Because we don’t understand everything, does not mean God should be less.”

“Try explaining that to someone who has been raped, Andrew!”

“I didn’t say it is an easy acceptance.  I just want you to understand a lot of our suffering is because we have painted too small of a picture of life.  Life is more than just being a victim.”

“You’ve never been victimized. You have no clue of how your heart and mind get disconnected from each other. And, you don’t know what it feels like to lose contact with the person you were before it happened.”

“Do you really think there are people who exist who have not been victimized? Sexual abuse isn’t the only victimization there is.  People hate me because I am white, wealthy and attractive. Do you think it’s easy for me to have friends and someone to love me for me?”

“What has happened to you, Andrew?”

“I’ve been robbed and held at gunpoint. Women have pretended to love me; in reality they wanted my money.  Men actually roll their eyes at me when they see me walking into stores or restaurants.  Try living with envy. Trust me it hurts.”

“I didn’t know. How do you hold on to yourself without being mad all the time?”

“I choose to feel the best feeling I can come up with and it always have God somewhere in it.”

“You don’t blame God for not protecting you?”

“I’m alive.  Case closed.”

Forget about Clinton, Obama and Mclain.  They are not gods nor are they responsible for our future.  We the American people are responsible for the hell we are in.

If we ever are going to have peace, equality and the pursuit of happiness without corruptible restraints, we are going to have to hold leadership accountable to their choices to represent our needs and future development.  It is time we stop allowing the media to dictate our perceptions of these individuals.  In reality there is no more to know and no more for them to say.  All that is happening now is a game to see how confused we can become in our choices.  If we do not live in their lives, we do not know them.  All our conclusions are not real even the best ones.  We just do not know these people just like you do not know me.  Yet, I too am alive and have perceptions.

What more is there to say?  Honestly, we know what our main problem is.  We lack the ability to have a unified purpose to save and improve the existence of the human race.  Because of this fallacy, leadership is chosen based on impossible fulfillments.  We do not need another president to stand before us like a puppet and carry out the wishes of those in power to dictate what the American people can and can not have.  It is obvious it is not the president that is destroying America; it is the people with the most money and need to keep people oppressed.  These people control what we need most and we know who they are.

If the little guy (quote unquote) was to stop worshipping idols and stop giving his power away to people who do not care anything about them, many celebrities and public figures would lose their prestige.  Large numbers of little people keep lesser numbers of rich folks rich and greedy.  And, the sad thing about it, these rich and greedy people does not appreciate the little guy.  Greedy people are the weaker people.  This can easily be proven by keeping our money out of their pockets.  It is their fear that there is not enough to go around that keeps America in a state of corruption.  They know they need the average person more than the average person needs them.  This is why they create a foundation to control oil, water, air, food, medications, jobs etc.  If the day would ever come that the human race wakes up and realizes life does not have to be tormenting and always in a state of survival, we can then have hope of a productive and constructive future for our children and ourselves as well.

We do not need anymore negative information about our potential president.  We need to wake up to the reality that without good there is no hope.  It is time for America to stop living in darkness.  “In God We Trust” was not put on money for no reason.  And, it was not for religious reasons.  It was put there to establish a foundation to choose best; to go high in all our choices as individuals and as a collective species.  Can we choose wisely?  

LAST DAY OF VICTIMIZATION (EXCERPT)

Gripping the Soul

A HORRIFIC MOVEMENT HAS TAKEN PLACE MAKING US AWARE WE ARE AN INDIVIDUAL AND WE HAVE A SOUL.  It is a taking that mars our total being.  It carries the vibrations of a wounded animal dying with no value.  Immediately when something is taken from us a death-like agony fills our emotions and feelings.  It makes us aware of a reality beyond the body and worldly environment.  We come to realize what we are made of.  That part of us silenced by external influences now becomes louder than our physical environment.  We feel like we’re bleeding yet in many cases there is no blood.  Something is oozing coming forth like puss from an infected wound.   We try to stuff everything back inside ourselves but whatever it is, we can’t see or touch it to control and direct it. It is like someone has literary pulled our hearts out of our chests and held it in their hands.  We see them with it but we can never get it back; yet we are alive and we have to go on although this huge part of us is gone.

It takes hold of our total mind and heart and festers into sweet sorrow because we have been robbed of our natural life flow to experience the moment uninhibited by evil forces.  Bitterness follows in most cases because that is what unjust pain becomes. The instant preparation of a private abyss formulates to pull us deeper into the darkness of our agony.

 My soul is weary of my life; I will leave my complaint upon myself; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul.  Job 10:1

Doses of Reality

          As the time passed, I grew too weary to think about what happened to me; instead my interest was in what was it about me that gave my victimizers the signals I could be captured.   I went back to the nature of a child because children are the most sought after and innocent victims in the world today.  They have the potential to allow love to be given and received.  Children give us a chance to do the right thing for humanity. 

            Compared to a child, I found I as well as people I had talked to who had been victimized, all had a heart to do the right thing by people and life.  We tend to have a respect for God and our spirituality.  When I accepted this woman as a partner in fulfilling my dream, I was busy praying and hoping to be a blessing in her life because there was no pleasure for me being blessed alone. 

            Where I was thinking about prospering her life while we worked towards my goals, she was interested in her own progress at my expense.  She led me to believe the value of my dream was valuable to her as well.  There was not anything childlike about her presence.  Her presence in the world joined the other worldly conscious of greedy and selfish people.   

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: 1Peter 5:8

As we begin to narrow down to that Democratic candidate, I can’t help but wonder which one can actually be the best candidate so I am left to rely on what I personally consider what is important.  In my everyday walk in life, I judge people by their parenting because if they are committed to their parenting then the chances of being people of good character rank high in my sight.  With this in mind, I wondered about Hillary Clinton.  I have not seen her exposure of nurturing and enjoying her family.  I’ve received numerous of e-mails and caught glimpses of Barrack Obama showing genuine affection towards his entire family.  Being that women are supposedly the natural nurturers created by God, it seems that there should be more displays of Hillary being a nurturing person towards others.  What I have only seen is a woman on the battle field.  And the price has left her to appear to have to put on tough skin to compete in a man’s world.  This is a turn off for me.  We have enough male energy going around in this world. 

The changes that this country need to be making is getting back in touch with the reality that we are spiritual beings having a human experience.  We are not human beings having a spiritual experience.  For our country to re –establish its ground, it has to face the fact that too much of anything is not good for us.  It is no doubt that America has had too much materialism and technology.  We have had too much mental and physical dependency leaving our spiritual selves out of our choices in life.  For this we are not making good judgments as individuals and as a country.  If we were in touch with our spiritual existence, we would not have ended up in Iraq to continue to gain more physical substance.  The lack of love for our fellowman over materialism has resulted in our facing the world as a real melting pot.  We are decaying quickly and the world is watching.

As I stated in the beginning, I believe parenting is the key to establishing loving bonds from one person to another.  When a child does not experience nurturing, love, caring and a chosen priority in their parents ‘ lives, the result is a callous heart that goes out into the world to gain material success and in some cases at any cost.  Our candidates including the republican candidate, Mr. John McCain must have a heart and that heart must be grounded in the family foundation in order that he or she will understand the soulful needs of this country that is starving from a lack of love, empathy, compassion and justice.  Charity always begins at home and spreads abroad.  Without love there is no hope of justice.  It is this reality that the world does not want to face for it is love that ends corruption.  There is no need in listening to candidates programmed to the ways of the world.  They will not accomplish anything but more corruption and a need to continue to rape the American people of their freedom to enjoy life as a child of God.  What does this mean?  It means without spirit, the American people can forget having a life without dictatorship.  The gas prices are telling us something.  There is a very powerful source behind the controllers of this needed entity.  This source wants Americans to become silent slaves to their madness.  And their success depends on our not allowing love to be a priority beginning in our homes.  Love will alter priorities and needs.  It will allow us to be set free as we were born to be.  Hillary let me see your love.